Brisbane

A long overdue holiday for Shane and a break for myself. Spent a lovely week in Brisbane. Shane didn't wanna come back, so do i. More updates later, meanwhile here're some pictures for you peeps :)

PS: I'll be busy shifting to a new place coming Friday and with a conference following week, i'll be dead by then, so to be honest, updates will be much much later. When i was in Brisbane, i really can't wait coming back to them! Isn't my life exciting?? ;p

Together We Can Help Them

Together we can help them.


To save the children, to save their fathers and to save their mothers.

I may not have a huge readership but if all of you who visit my blog on a daily basis could just donate US$1, I would be truly grateful and thankful.


Please do your little bit to help.

~ Shanewei ~

International Donors

International Federation of Red Cross and Red Crescent Societies

American Red Cross

Mercy Corps

Peace Corps



Singapore Donors

In Aid of China Earthquake Relief

Members of the public who would like to contribute towards the Red Cross China Earthquake Appeal can make their donations through the following:


Cash/Walk-in Donations
Walk-in donations can be made at the Singapore Red Cross Society, 15 Penang Lane, Singapore 238486.

Collection hours are:
Mon - Fri: 9.30am - 5.45pm
Sat & Sun (17-18 May): 9.30am - 5pm
Vesak Day (19 May): 9.30am - 5pm

For more information, please call the Singapore Red Cross at 6334-9152/53 or email china.enquiry@redcross.org.sg.


Cheque Donations
Cheque can be made payable to:
Singapore Red Cross Society

Please indicate behind the cheque:
1) Name, Organisation (if applicable), Mailing Address and Contact Numbers
2) For Red Cross China Earthquake Appeal

An official receipt (Donation is not tax deductible) will be issued.

Send the cheque to:
Singapore Red Cross Society
15 Penang Lane
Singapore 238486

*Singpost waives postage for cheque donations to Singapore Red Cross


UOB Internet Banking
1) Login to UOB Personal Internet Banking
2) Click on "Bill Payment" on the left menu
3) Click on "Pay Bills" on the left menu
4) Click on "New Bill" on the main screen
5) Select "Red Cross China Earthquake" from the drop down menu of the payee corporations list
6) Enter telephone number as the Bill Reference Number
7) Enter the debiting account to debit donation
8) Enter the donation amount
9) Click on "Confirm" button to approve payment


UOB Cheque Donations
Donations by cheque can be dropped at the UOB's cheque deposit boxes. Cheques should be crossed and made payable to "Red Cross - China Relief Fund".


DBS/POSB Fund Transfer
1) Insert your ATM card and enter PIN. Select "More Services"
2) Select "Credit Card/Bill Payment"
3) Key in "99" Other Corporation
4) Key in "99" again
5) Key in "18" for Red Cross China Earthquake
6) Indicate your contact number as the Bill Reference Number.
7) Select account type
8) Enter donation amount
9) Press "Confirm" to complete transaction


DBS Internet Banking
1) Log on to DBS iBanking,
2) Go to "Payment Services"
3) Under "Bill Payment"
4) Select "RedCross China Earthquake"
5) Indicate your contact number as the Consumer Reference Number


AXS Stations
You can also donate at all AXS stations islandwide.


To view the official Singapore Red Cross press statement, click here.

In Aid of Myanmar Cyclone Relief

Members of the public who would like to contribute to relief efforts in Myanmar can make their donations through the following:


Cash/Walk-in Donations
Walk-in donations can be made at the Singapore Red Cross Society, 15 Penang Lane, Singapore 238486.

Collection hours are:
Mon - Fri: 9.30am - 5.45pm
Sat & Sun ( 10-11 May): 9.30am - 5pm

For more information, please call the Singapore Red Cross at 6334-9152/53 or email enquiry@redcross.org.sg.


Cheque Donations
Cheque can be made payable to:
Singapore Red Cross Society
Please indicate behind the cheque:
1) Name, Organisation (if applicable), Mailing Address and Contact Numbers
2) For Survivors of Myanmar cyclone

An official receipt (Donation is not tax deductible) will be issued.

Send the cheque to:
Singapore Red Cross Society
15 Penang Lane
Singapore 238486

*Singpost waives postage for cheque donations to Singapore Red Cross


DBS/POSB Fund Transfer
1) Select "More Services"
2) Select "Credit Card/Bill Payment".
3) Key in "99" Other Corporation, then key in "13" for Red Cross Myanmar Cyclone.
Indicate your contact number as the Bill Reference Number


DBS Internet Banking
1) Log on to DBS iBanking,
2) Go to "Payment Services"
3) Under "Bill Payment",
4) Select "Red Cross Myanmar Cyclone"
5) Indicate your contact number as the Consumer Reference Number


UOB Internet Banking
1) Login to UOB Personal Internet Banking
2) Click on "Bill Payment" on the left menu
3) Click on "Pay Bills" on the left menu
4) Click on "New Bill" on the main screen
5) Select "Red Cross China Earthquake" from the drop down menu of the payee corporations list
6) Enter telephone number as the Bill Reference Number
7) Enter the debiting account to debit donation
8) Enter the donation amount
9) Click on "Confirm" button to approve payment


AXS Stations
You can also donate at all AXS stations islandwide.


To view the official Singapore Red Cross press statement, click here.

**Thank You Very Much For Your Kind Generosity**

The Day She Went Away

The day she went away
With tears flooding her face
Packed up all that she had
And left without a trace.


She, not sure what to expect
Not knowing what lies ahead
In her mind, she just wanna escape
From all the lies that had spun into an endless web.


With the growing life in her
And the ever increasing need to protect
From all the cruel facts
That were enveloping the fragile new breath.


A charming angelic face she saw one day
Sense of contentment built up her way
She thought she might try again
For the beautiful angel that clung to her hand.


She went back to live in the new place she called home
Thought of giving her babe a new lease of hope
But his feelings had grown into a cold dome
In the uncertain darkness, she tried to grope.


Alone and despair with the sleeping babe
Eerie quietness turned into a frozen deaf
Else shoutings, the only noise that was made
In the middle of the nite, she left.


Peace and calm was what she felt
For the first time she could actually laugh
Even though the card that fate dealt
Splited her heart in half.


Time went by, she was surviving alright
The little babe was her guiding light
That two years seemed to be the best
The two of them in the cosy small nest.


Somehow he was back in their lives
Going for outings from time to time
She was toying with the idea of staying by his side
As his tone and messages seemed to imply.


At last she gave it a final thought
To give her restless heart a smoother road
And perhaps her babe can have
A daddy to play with like the rest.


She agreed on the terms given
And all the conditions she would willingly take
Just so she could build a haven
And a complete family for her babe.


Tried as hard as she might
Just to give it one last try
But alas, it went down the drain
And her packing up again.


This time was never the same
There was no more tear left in her heart to stain
Although some feelings remain
But no longer would she stay.


She was as much to be blamed
For the thunder and the rain
And now she just hope for the best
For herself, her babe and may God bless.


In a week's time all will be brought to an end
With the judge to give it a final hand
To put the five turbulent years to a rest
Hopefully she will survive any future test.


However, if fate miraculously strike its hand
Transport her back to square one again
She would still choose the same man
And live it differently for Shane.

I wrote this in December 2005 and posted it on Moblog. Didn't know i can be so poetic huh? Never underestimate what a woman can do, especially one that survived the dark moments in her life. Feeling rather nostalgic tonite, so i went browsing back at my old entries, savouring every word, every picture and slowly transporting some of them here. If you been reading my blog since the day i started writing at moblog, sorry for this repetition (and more to come). If you are reading this for the first time, do you feel what i feel then?

Have You Seen A Whale?

You might if you have yesterday's Digital Life and read my interview on "Wired Mummy". Wahhhhhhhhh okay, you know why, wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (cried somemore).


Don't get me wrong, i love the article written by Yuen-C. She made me feel wonderful about myself and for once, i think i'm in love with me :) and if i can marry myself, i will promptly do so. But i honestly cannot say the same for the picture. Although everyone in the office assured me (at first) that i 'looked good' but the truth soon came out, one by one. They said the picture didn't do me justice.. Wahhhhhhhhhhhh (Cried even louder, sorry if i soak your sleeve accidentally, but don't worry, my tears are clean and in fact, they are very precious, so keep them safe somewhere and trade them for rice when the supplies go down again). They said i look prettier and of course slimmer in person (i know darlingggsss) but still, the whole Singapore saw that ugly picture...Granted, i'm not your super-slim-girl-next-door and i have horrible pictures taken by Fen and the rest but it's still nicer than the one published na...Wahhhhhhhhhhhh


When PH came for drinks with Champion later that evening, i jokingly asked them both whether can they call a certain Mr P. Daniel to arrange another shoot since they know him so well? PH promised to ask when Mr. Daniel is back from wherever he is, haha! But to be honest, taking such picture is really stressful, i feel like i have a whole load of stones in me (no wonder that added pounds to the pic, haha ;p). Kat texted me, saying i looked fabulous, more than Diana Ser. Oh com'on, i honestly don't think so and i know she was trying to soothe my wound. Kat herself looked gorgeous when she appeared on those high-life magazines and Business Times but me? i looked like a big fat whale trying to sit still, with wobbly fat fingers holding an ultra slim phone. What a perfect combination! Have you seen the 200 pound beauty korean movie? Yah, something like that. I cringe at the sight of that picture and if i have a way, i would have bought up all the papers that day! Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....


Aud said it was the lens the photographer used, Chris and many others said it was the wrong angle taken from below, Lynn said it was because i was seated. But the same lens must have been used for the other two celebrities as well and they definitely must have many shots taken from different angles too. Anyway... Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..


Okay now, i'm tired from crying too much ;p. Have a good Labour Holiday tomorrow. Go have fun, eat and make merry. As for me, i shall stay home with my wild-rocket salads and plain water.

And btw, i leave you a much 'accurate' picture lest your mind kept wandering to that whale.. haha :)

Becks Leaving Do And . . .

Alright, i'm going to post some pics from Becks leaving party here, all carefully selected, naturally the naughty ones won't be shown here and unless you are in my facebook, you won't be seeing them anywhere else :)


We were naughty, to be honest. We cross-dressed him and made him walked out of the office building in a lovely pink tube dress (actually it was a skirt, we just pulled it all the way up to look like a tube dress), carefully chosen by Aud, complete with pink wig, courtesy of darling Ivy, and a lovely necklace from Mommy Al. And Becks, being the good fun sport he was, allowed all these to happen. Well, he didn't actually know, coz Aud had blind-folded him before 'changing' him. But he was game enough to let us do what ever we wanted that evening.


So if you happen to be in Shenton Way at about 7.20pm on April 8, you might have caught a glimpse of a lovely tall pink maiden, head covered in a kimage paper bag - yes, that was Becks!! Haha..!


I had it all planned well, conspiring with his two other flatmates, and the party was held in Becks' own apartment, a very hot, spacious penthouse on top of an office building at the end of Shenton Way. It was super huge, with a super big garden plus a lovely view of the City and part of the World Trade Center. No wonder girls are flocking to his pad every now and then ;p


Becks didn't know where he was taken to (although i half suspected that Joggy might have told him), but he was surprised to find himself in his own apartment after we took the blind fold off. Even if he knew way ahead where the party would be, he was an excellent actor not to have let it showed.


Although Becks was very adventurous with food, there were a few he swore off like - pig's brain soup, pizza with lotsa pineapples (he insisted that was not the way to eat pizza with) and bittergourd. Therefore, coupled with some other food, we had our own little fear factor. Dear Becks took all these in a gulp but had to wash it down later with some strong gin to kill the taste!


I won't forget that nite, a nite of fun, laughter and of course, some tears. No doubt he won't be in the same time zone as i am, but i'm sure he will be constantly terrorizing me in some ways and being in the same firm makes it easier for him to do so.


Anyway here're the pics, enjoy and hopefully, you won't ask me any question :)

"The Ultimate Bachelor Pad in Singapore"

 

Don't you think he looks kinda cute here??

(Becks's gonna roast me alive if he knows i posted his pics here.. don't tell him ok)

And today is my birthday :) and as usual, x-man is the first to send me birthday greeting. In fact, for no reason, i dreamt of him on Sunday nite. Well, i actually dreamt i kissed him without brushing my teeth (it was morning in my dream). When i woke up, i thought to myself, ermmm, i wasn't sure which was gross, kissing someone without brushing teeth or kissing him?? Haha... anyway, he's not really that bad lah, if he's a changed man, i don't mind kissing him, with or without brushing teeth!! And last nite, i dreamt of him again, no, no kissing this time, but just some cuddling.. Goodness, what was wrong with me??


Anyway, thank you to those who emailed me, sent me sweet sms, leaving me birthday greetings on my facebook and MySpace. I always feel extra special on my birthday. Champion gave me S$150 to buy snacks for tea for my bday plus gave me two bottles of his wines to share with the rest in the office. What more can i expect from a boss?? Such kind soul, ok lah, i'll be his maid my next life.

 

"Happy Birthday To Me"

 

I haven't drink them yet.. maybe i can resell it back to Champ.. :)

PS: If you leave unkind comments here on Becks, i'm gonna delete them and i promise i won't talk to you for life!

Becks

I have never cried that much after my issues with x-man was settled but few days ago, my tears had a great time falling freely and happily from my eyes which would have made the monsoon rain proud.

And all because of one man, another man, not x-man. This man has injected so much fun, laughter and joy in my life for the last two and a half years that with him gone, i suddenly feel like i have being 'divorced' the second time round. The irony is, i wasn’t even in a ‘relationship’ with him in the first place.

Becks, the first ‘ang moh’ man in my life and one i know no other ang moh can ever replace. From the world he was in previously, he blended extremely well into ours, experiencing everything without hesitation. He is game for anything. He tried durians and loved it and he can even eat more than me. I remembered when he first came to Singapore, he brought me to Top Ten in Orchard Towers to meet his friends without knowing what kind of place that was. I didn’t know too until he sent me off in a cab 15 minutes later and on the way to the taxi stand, he finally told me why. That was not a place for a 'decent' girl like me. Haha, yes, i was very decent then :)

He is a very easy going man, exceptionally well-spoken, smart and very adaptable. Becks is at ease chatting with anyone, from the cleaners, to taxi drivers to any senior executive. I’m most impressed by his linguist skills. He is good with his bahasa as well as mandarin and is fast at picking up our local dialects although i wouldn’t repeat some of the dialect words he learned from the taxi drivers.

Shane is so smitten with him that when he knows his favourite uncle is leaving for good, he cried badly. The wizard uncle who played bat and throwing ball and running around the office with him. Shane's special magician uncle. I did a 20minutes video for Becks and on his last nite in Singapore, i played for him at his farewell party. The vid was very difficult for me to make, not just piecing each clip, but going through so many old pictures, the emotion was a bit too overwhelming for me. It took 48hours to complete, leaving me completely exhausted for the few days after. But it’s all worth it. By the end of the vid, everyone had tears in their eyes. Becks is indeed a special man to many of us.

After the party, he texted me, telling me that both shane and i have such a special place in his heart and i can send Shane to him and his parents in London anytime. Little did he know, he has a special place in both our hearts too. I dunno when i’m seeing him again but if all went well, i’ll see him again in Osaka end of this year.

In London last year, he brought me and Aud to The Ivy’s for lunch, a very popular celeb-watching restaurant that needed an advance booking of at least five months ahead. He made arrangements and took us both to Sussex for a day where we enjoyed our first countryside experience out of London.

Becks, he is someone that is hard to forget.

 

I will miss you mate!

 

 

Note: He's really a great colleague and friend at work - don't anyhow think ah.. :)

Hey You!

That was two days back, now it's Wednesday morning!! Yawn... zzzz


Yippeee... I'm off tomorrow. But I'm not telling you what i'm doing :)


Btw, i'm puzzled by people's reaction when they knew i'm Malaysian. Hey i'm proud to be one k. Although my country may not be as developed as yours, and even if it's not as clean as yours nor as safe as yours, but it's still kick-ass in some ways. I grew up there.


No, i'm not gonna start some controversial entry now, i just wanna sleep. Nitey nite~~



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Menghapus Jejakmu

by Peterpan

terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiran mu buat ku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
ku coba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hati ku terbelenggu
ku coba untuk lanjutkan hidup

engkau bukan lah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiran mu buat ku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
ku coba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hati ku terbelenggu
ku coba untuk lanjutkan hidup

engkau bukan lah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu
lepaskan segala nya

engkau bukan lah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

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I have always been introducing thai songs, so here's a refreshing change. This is a favourite of mine too, hope you like it na :)

BBQ

I love BBQ!!


Went on a mini BBQ picnic with Al, Ed and Little Luke on Friday. It was fun and now, i want to have a mini BBQ pit at home too so i can have BBQ anytime!! haha. But it's no fun starting fire and unless i want to burn the whole house down, starting fire is not really my forte. Can i leave it to the guys please?? :)


They brought a tent too! So yes, i want to buy one tent now as well. :))))) The boys didn't wanna go home and Shane said he wanted to stay overnite there which fortunately we didn't. Given me a choice anytime, i still wanna go home. I like my humble home, my warm bed and my cosy bathroom!

The boys had fun trying to fly kites.

This was at East Coast, so it was not sun set. Rather it was moon-rise. So pretty rite, and the moon was so big and round, was it the Chinese month 15th yet??

And finally Shane's first SSO - Casual Concert. The Maestro today is my favorite - Lan Shui. I shall find a nice picture of him and post it here. If you know him, tell him i like him :) Al was the one who 'introduced' Lan Shui and Casual Concert to me five years ago.

No photography allowed but you guys know me, there are some rules i like to break, so here's a 'stolen' pic i took.

After the concert, Shane was hungry and he wanted to eat the almond brownie from Gelare.

But he kept pinching my waffle with chocolate and brandy cherry ice-cream! His eyes was a bit red coz i scolded him for not eating what he ordered :(

(All pictures above are taken with my Samsung Z720)

Passed by Eu Yan Seng in Raffles City and bought some cordyceps, apparently good for those with respiratory problems. It's so expensive. Four of those bundles combined are about the size of my two thumbs! Shane has just recovered from cough and he has slight asthma. I had childhood asthma so Shane got that from me. I'm going to boil this into soup for him and this herb was once worms! Ewwwww. The lady at EYS told me that i must put them in the freezer. I innocently asked whether will they turn back to worms if i didn't freeze them?? O.O

For Shane's well being, i'm going to make this twice a month.

So, i will shop less from now on :)

ps: Not sure if you like thai songs, but if you do, turn up your volume now coz this song that i'm currently featuring is a very beautiful song. If you don't understand the lyrics, just enjoy the beautiful saxaphone music :). If you want to google for this song, the title in thai is 'kid theung ter took tee tee you khon dieu' . . . loosely translated as "I miss you always (by myself)" by Koh Mr. Saxman feat. Jennifer Kim. My thai is not good, pardon me :)

One Hundred i

Hey there, com'on in.


I'm gonna tell you 100 things about i that you may be reading for the first time:


Now, hold tight!



100. i love reading.

99. i have heights phobia.

98. i wear my watch on my right hand but i'm not a left-hander.

97. i hate the sight of blood.

96. i do not like caterpillars, maggots, worms and all that stuffs.

95. i hate washing toilets.

95. i love strawberry ice-cream with thin waffles.

93. i like to eat cockles.

92. i once talked to my senior in school for five hours straight - until 4am in the morning!

91. i'm a house-moving expert (i have moved 4 times in 3 years).

90. i love to cook but hate washing up after that.

89. i eat blanched brocolli with belachan to lose weight.

88. i like my steak medium rare.

87. i like spicy food.

86. i like schweppes ginger beer.

85. i also like wheatgrass drink.

84. i like green color (which is why i like the wheatgrass drink).

83. i only drink plain water when it's warm coz it tastes funny when it's at room temperature.

82. i once sewed a kimono dress for my barbie doll.

81. i look fugly and scary when i woke up in the morning.

80. i must shower everyday and before sleeping. (i heard there are people who don't!)

79. i color my own hair.

78. i like putting the clothes in the washing machine for washing but hate taking them out for hanging.

77. i cuss when i'm crossed.

76. i've watched porn movies before. (don't pretend you've NEVER watch one!)

75. i don't own any flat shoes.

74. i like to be alone. Sometimes.

73. i can make my own lychee martini but i think it tastes weird.

72. i don't like men who secretly steal glances at other girls when they are with their partners.

71. i like men with a good sense of humour coz i'm a full-of-nonsense-kinda-girl.

70. i like flowers, just not chrysanthemun.

69. i like gadgets (not those chain, handcuffs or whip types, ok).

68. i don't like men who come too close to me when they are talking. i don't like to breathe in what they breathe out!

67. i enjoy going to the movies.

66. i still love pizzas from The Pizza Hut.

65. i love Macdonalds' french fries.

64. i can drive really well. My driving-instructors think otherwise.

63. i don't like to make the first move on a guy even if i like him. (i'm still stuck in my mother's time)

62. i'm smart. Like totally smart!

61. i like Christmas.

60. i like to shop alone.

59. i love heels from Aldo.

58. i eat to live but sometimes i think i live to eat!

57. i hate cockcroaches. Must eat them all.

56. i won't bite unless i find you really offensive.

55. i like super happy songs. Like Lemon Tree.

54. i want to try Detoxing. Can lose a few pounds you know.

53. i like to watch movies that have very good-looking male leads and very beautiful female-leads. All the male leads must either be very very rich or very very powderful and the female leads must either be very very poor or outcasts. Ahh, you can bring in the popcorn now!

52. i love Barney, the purple dinosaur.

51. i read T3 magazine.

50. i love Shane. You guys already know that, don't you?

49. i love having ten boyfriends all at one go.

48. i love kids.

47. i can boil very delicious soup.

46. i love myself.

45. i'm a man(meat)-eater.

44. i wash my hair only once a week.

43. i love steamed corn with lotsa margerine and salt.

42. i don't like to work.

41. i like gold fish. That's why i have gold fish eyes.

40. i like to eat baked banana with lotsa melted dark chocolate.

39. i'm good at reading minds.

38. i don't like to sleep alone.

37. i can down ten cans of tiger beer in five minutes. i know i am Amazing!

36. i pray everyday that money can drop from the sky.

35. i love sardine puff and not curry puff.

34. i can bake amazing chocolate chips that will go straight to your hips.

33. i love organic food.

32. i am super good at acting (only to uninteresting-over-eager male species).

31. i laugh easily.

30. i'm scared of ghosts, monsters, spirits, etc.

29. i read the wall street journal.

28. i can talk and listen at the same time. Again, i am Amazing.

27. i look very good in bikinis.

26. i think all men should help out in houseworks.

25. i never get angry.

24. i like men fifteen years younger than me. Really!

23. i actually enjoy sleeping during the movies.

22. i love plane (plain) food coz i have nothing better to eat.

21. i'm very good at maths.

20. i enjoy cleaning ceiling fans. The higher, the better.

19. i love thunder tea rice.

18. i believe that if i unskin an apple at 12midnite while looking into the mirror, i'll see my future partner.

17. i like licking my fingers, especially after having KFC.

16. i can set your heart on fire with just one stare.

15. i enjoy plane rides.

14. i think men who help out with houseworks are really cute.

13. i am funny.

12. i've got two more tattoos and a navel ring today.

11. i can spend hours at the supermarket. Very therapeutic.

10. i cry easily.

09. i can fix the computer.

08. i can read a book upside-down.

07. i can make sardine puffs better than Old Chang Kee.

06. i am pretty much a psychic.

05. i don't enjoy eating popcorn unless i'm at the movies.

04. i can make you remember me forever.

03. i can also make myself forget about you at the same time.

02. i'm currently having a crush on someone but i'm not telling you who!!

01. do you actually believe all that you read here??

=)


Haha.. that was my "One Hundred i" list i did sometime in 2006 on my Moblog. I was reminded of it when i read MonkeyCrab's post about her hundred things. We are SMART girls!!


Now go do your 'One Hundred i" when you are free and post it here for my lunchtime reading.

We Will Hold On Together

If we hold on together, i know our dreams will never die.


While searching for an old song “Hold On’ by Mari Hamada, i came across this song by Diana Ross. Brought back memories of my younger, carefree days. Days where i basically live for the moment, eat, sleep, study, gossip about other girls and giggle over some guys i secretly fancy. This song is not merely a song that bridges me to my past but now i find myself appreciating its lyrics slightly more than before.


Yes, call it whatever you like, an emotional boost? Yes, i need that constantly.


I’m trying to realise Shane’s dreams, not just academically-wise but in every way I can. And as long as it's what he wants, i will do my best to help him fulfill that dream. Though I may be overly rushing into things, but as far as I’m concern, while i’m still breathing and while i can afford, i want him to get only the best. Dreams mould us to who we are. We all need dreams. Especially a child.


After the trial piano lesson, Shane fell in love with it. Who wouldn't? It not only sound beautiful but the piano itself is a beautiful piece of art. And i bought him a piano which was delivered yesterday and he’s starting his individual classical piano lesson on Monday.

Shane has been very happy playing off tune on the piano as well as jamming it out on his drum. Seeing my child so happy makes it all so worthwhile, isn't it?


Some said i spoilt my kid too much. Maybe i did. To a woman, her child is far more important that anyone, what more about me. Shane is all i have. Without him, i wouldn't have what i have today. He inspires me. He motivates me. He completes my life. When i told him i am fat, he told me gently, "Mommy, you are not fat, you are just right. You are perfect!". And when i chided him for forgetting what homework he needed to do and asked him what can he remember? "I only remember you" was all he said. So pray tell, how could i not love a child like that and give him all i can? How could i not reciprocate that innocent, delicate love of his?

"The person I like most is Mommy. She loves me very much"