Coming Back

The more i listen to this song, the more the memories are flowing back. Bit by bit, little by little, memories of happier times with him start to fill up my head. Maybe it's because i'm alone and have nothing better to do which somehow gave him a chance to quietly creep into my mind. Of the first time he brought cut fruits to my first workplace, the first bouquet of flowers he sent me on my birthday which i thanked my boss stupidly instead of him, the first movie we watched at Capitol and many many more. But strangely, those are memories of the first few years. The memories of the rest of my years with him are begining to get hazy.


Maybe i'm getting old. There's a saying, the older one gets, the more they will reminisce the long forgotten happier times.


Or maybe it's the effect of listening to this song on loop mode.

December

After 12 months of waiting, December is here again, popping its head through the gloomy and rainy weather. I'm here alone, at home, updating this blog and listening to this Thai song currently playing. Turn up the volume. You will like this song too.


Dad was discharged yesterday. He was admitted for losing too much blood. He came back from a 3-week driving trip from China. It was his dream of doing a driving trip and he fulfilled that. He and his friends shipped their cars to Shenzhen, China and from there, they drove to various parts of China before driving back to JB (Malaysia) via Laos, Cambodia and Thailand. The journey was too tough for a 69 year old man. All he said to us was he wasn't feeling well when we called him on his birthday on December 6th. Little did we know Dad was very ill and at one stage, was hospitalised in China!!!


He finally came back last Sunday and we heard some not-so-good news from his friends. Dad stubbornly refused to see a doctor despite being weak and pale but finally gave in to us on Wednesday. Doc told us Dad needed to be warded immediately as he was losing too much blood, almost 60% of a normal healthy adult male. He needed a blood transfusion. Dad finally admitted to us he has on-off rectal bleeding for the past 2 years and while he was in China, the bleeding recurred. Doc sent him for a colonoscopy on Thursday and found a large polyp in his colon. It's now removed and being sent for test.


With God's blessing, Dad is as-far-as-we-can-tell fine now and guess what, he's now on a holiday trip with my eldest sis and her family. Dad is as stubborn as all of his children combined and he wanted to go. Since he is now somewhat ok and with his doctor's approval, we allowed him to travel again.


I thank God for His blessing and mercy on my Dad. Wihtout God's grace, i don't know how Dad can come back home to us at all. I'm sure everything will be alright. Dad kept telling us he has unfinished God's work to do and hence, he needed to live on. He's a very positive man. All i can do is to constantly pray for his health and well-being.


There're so much things i haven't done for my Dad and i want more time for him.