The Day She Went Away

The day she went away
With tears flooding her face
Packed up all that she had
And left without a trace.


She, not sure what to expect
Not knowing what lies ahead
In her mind, she just wanna escape
From all the lies that had spun into an endless web.


With the growing life in her
And the ever increasing need to protect
From all the cruel facts
That were enveloping the fragile new breath.


A charming angelic face she saw one day
Sense of contentment built up her way
She thought she might try again
For the beautiful angel that clung to her hand.


She went back to live in the new place she called home
Thought of giving her babe a new lease of hope
But his feelings had grown into a cold dome
In the uncertain darkness, she tried to grope.


Alone and despair with the sleeping babe
Eerie quietness turned into a frozen deaf
Else shoutings, the only noise that was made
In the middle of the nite, she left.


Peace and calm was what she felt
For the first time she could actually laugh
Even though the card that fate dealt
Splited her heart in half.


Time went by, she was surviving alright
The little babe was her guiding light
That two years seemed to be the best
The two of them in the cosy small nest.


Somehow he was back in their lives
Going for outings from time to time
She was toying with the idea of staying by his side
As his tone and messages seemed to imply.


At last she gave it a final thought
To give her restless heart a smoother road
And perhaps her babe can have
A daddy to play with like the rest.


She agreed on the terms given
And all the conditions she would willingly take
Just so she could build a haven
And a complete family for her babe.


Tried as hard as she might
Just to give it one last try
But alas, it went down the drain
And her packing up again.


This time was never the same
There was no more tear left in her heart to stain
Although some feelings remain
But no longer would she stay.


She was as much to be blamed
For the thunder and the rain
And now she just hope for the best
For herself, her babe and may God bless.


In a week's time all will be brought to an end
With the judge to give it a final hand
To put the five turbulent years to a rest
Hopefully she will survive any future test.


However, if fate miraculously strike its hand
Transport her back to square one again
She would still choose the same man
And live it differently for Shane.

I wrote this in December 2005 and posted it on Moblog. Didn't know i can be so poetic huh? Never underestimate what a woman can do, especially one that survived the dark moments in her life. Feeling rather nostalgic tonite, so i went browsing back at my old entries, savouring every word, every picture and slowly transporting some of them here. If you been reading my blog since the day i started writing at moblog, sorry for this repetition (and more to come). If you are reading this for the first time, do you feel what i feel then?