Going for his haircut on NYE.
At least for Shane, it is definitely a new beginning, a new chapter in his life. Primary school life. Shane has reached a new milestone.
I get teary easily, especially when Shane is involved. Watching him joining his class queue last Friday during the school orientation made me teary. Seeing him dressed up this morning in his school uniform made me teary. Sending him to school and watched him go up the staircase leading to a room far from me, where parents were barred - made me teary. Watching him from afar during his break time, watching him eating his food, talking to his friends, washing his tender hands and joining back the queue after the break made me teary. Waving to him when he was on the second storey on his way back to his class, made me teary for the last time today. WE have made it this far. It's also an achievement for me, for i can tell you, it's not easy.
Looking back at my life is like watching a TVB long-running drama except i don't have a wicked step-mother nor ex mother-in-law who snatched away my baby son and made everyone weepy. I always wanted to be a mother but I never imagined myself to walk this path all by myself, let alone walked this far with Shane. Now young Shane is in Primary One. He told me that he's now a young man, no longer a baby.
And this young man has certainly made me proud, in many ways and not just once. Growing up without a constant male influence has somehow turned him into a mini-me, except of course, Shane is much smarter and cuter. And my biggest worry now is whether does he know how to use the boys' toilet in school!
I once wrote, We have come a long way. Life with him is ever so enriching and entertaining. He has been through so much with me. For his tender young age, he is mature in a way. Shane, the Star of my life. Twinkling in the darkest moment, like a mini torch guiding my way through. I can’t imagine my life without him anymore. He shares everything i have, my love, my joy, my fears and my tears.
Today, i love him more than yesterday. And tomorrow, I will love him even much more than today. My love for him is growing more and more each day, to the point that i want to hold him like this forever, not doing anything, not going anywhere, just holding him close to my heart.
I had a fleeting moment of sympathy for his father, the man who has never known what true love is, the man who has never heard his child's first cry nor his first word. The man who doesn't really know how to love a child. The man who has never gave himself a chance to experience his child's great love. The man who missed his child's many first time. No matter who's right and who's wrong, i am happy with the way my life turned out to be. I'm contented with what i have because Shane completes me.
@ break time.
A happy Shane after a day in school.
12 comments:
Shane is looking smart! He's a fine-looking young man. Wish him good luck. btw Mommy, don't worry about the boys toilet, shane will figure it out by himself, relax.
read your blog,really touch,is not easy lo.
can you email me ?
jiekeliang@yahoo.cn or funnyman_neo@hotmail.com
A belated Happy New Year to you too (and of course to your precious...) =)
PS. Shane looked so thoughtful during his hair cut. He didn't like it, huh?
Shane IS SO CUTE!! :D
How are things with you ?
Seeing Shane in his uniform and how both of you had made it so far touches me. And to let you know that you are not alone tearing.... Take care and enjoy this phase of life :)
Thanks for visiting my blog. Judging from the comments above, it looks like you have a story to tell... i'll be back to investigate when I have more time! :)
Haha, your son looks soooooo cute! XD
Don't worry lar, it's normal for shoes to get THAT dirty after one day.
Hyperactive kids + Sugar + Game(s) of Tag = Very Dirty Uniform and Shoes
yup, shane is growing up. His "father" is a fool 4 missing out such a fine boy. too bad Shane can't experience the love of a father. But with a mother like u, i am sure he will do fine. Take care, both of u
dear G, Shane is looking so adorable, and he is so lucky to be loved by his mommy. take care lovely!
tony, anonymous & anonymouse_x, lucas, amanda, dave and zendreus: thanks :))!!
Akai, it's so good to hear from you again. i sent a sms to your mobile during xmas, but not sure if you are still holding on to the same number.
Danceal & tolive4jesus, nice to have you guys here :)
~ I lost my mobile on the 21st of December, and managed only to reconnet it on 20th Jan, just coz i was too used to NOT having a phone :P i'm sorry i imssed your Christmas greeting, but thanks very much dear G. ^_______^ i hope it's been a good day for you and shane, with LCNY so near!
Akai dear, don't lost your mobile again ya ;p
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