i'm lost

I'm lost, or have I? I don't know. I seemed to have walk a long way out but yet, the exit still seemed so far. I'm not turning back. There is absolutely no way I'm turning back.

I think I saw the exit now. Thank you everyone. You have walked this far with me.

Sentosa...Again??

Okay, more pictures coming up next post. Meanwhile, just enjoy some narcissism from Miyuki & Me! These were not part of the Sentosa series though, actually not much Sentosa pictures these times!! If you recall, I was there with Miyuki & Shane in April this year.

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My dot dot dot ( . . . ) means TIP - 'Thinking In Process'.

Actually no. I am done with thinking but find it hard to tanslate into abc, into words, into coherent sentences. So I'm playing you my favourite new song. I have got some of you hooked on Thai songs and now, here's my first introduction to a Malay song - Kenangan Terindah.

I was back home for the weekend. Home is in Malaysia and was walking around the mall with Shane. Was attracted by this song and lured to its den, paid RM$21.90 (S$9.50) just for this one song. I understand this language better than English sometimes, coz Bahasa was my first language at school and everything was conducted in Bahasa. All except of course, English =P. However, strange as it may seem, Becks said I speak with a Nigerian accent. Yeah, actually, I didn't tell you guys, I have an imaginary Nigerian boyfriend, hidden in my pocket and when I'm lonely, I will take him out for a chat. No need MSN. And that explains the accent!

Kenangan Terindah ("Beautiful Memories") By Samsoms Aku yang lemah tanpamu Aku yang rentan karena Cinta yang t'lah hilang darimu Yang mampu menyanjungku Selama mata terbuka Sampai jantung tak berdetak Selama itu pun aku Mampu untuk mengenangmu Darimu kutemukan hidupku Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati Bila yang tertulis untukku Adalah yang terbaik untukmu 'Kan kujadikan kau kenangan Yang terindah dalam hidupku Namun tak 'kan mudah bagiku Meninggalkan jejak hidupku Yang t'lah terukir abadi Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

"Sebenarnya, engkau bagaikan kenanganku yang terindah,

Tapi sekarang, engkau bagaikan kenangan yang ku nggak mahu."

He said he's gonna cast a spell on me which is the hardest spell to cure and I will lost all my memories and in the end I will not remember anyone but myself. If spell is that easy to cast, then can one of you get me the biggest pot with some scorpions - preferably black ones, tiny red ants, centipedes (maybe at least the length of a long ruler) and then make me a mini bonfire? Coz I wanna walked around this pot with my broom while chanting some incantations tonite - so that I can make Brad Pitt fall madly in love with me and not that Jolie girl!

I cried, shed some silly tears tonite coz I wonder what will happen to my Shane if there were indeed spells, charms and black magics in this world, all cast upon me in one shot. Who will take care and love my Shane the way I did were I to disappear in one puff suddenly? Will his wicked Thai stepmother torture him? Irony is it not, consider I'm part Thai myself?

Should I ever lost all my memories one day, can you guys help me to remember only Shane?

That's all I want to remember.

Mom(X) said to stay strong. Sure I will, I can deal with most things, but am not sure about dealing with forces of the dark. Is there really one to begin with? I don't wanna turn into another Darth Vader.

Happy Birthday Singapore!!

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Tata!

My Karaoke Experience . . .

About to go out to meet Fenny. Shane insisted on taking funny shots, so there you are.

Happy Sunday tomorrow..!!

Love, Passionately

Oh yes, I was inspired...

By my Aunt Kim who sells her own handmade accessories with pretty trinkets, swarovski crystals and semi precious stones. Also inspired by the babelicious Surferbabe, who has a good eye for fashion, oh do visit her beautiful pieces here: Babelittlethings

I love everything BIG & CHUNKY... oh, yes everything *wink*.... accessories especially, from earrings to bracelets to rings.

And so, on a bored afternoon, after several rounds to the toilet, I made this:

Yes, My Very Own Chunky Big Ring!!

And which I have named:

Love, Passionately

You see, the main items used is Rose Quartz, a kind of semi precious gemstone (stolen from Aunt Kim's toolbox) which Aunt Kim told me, has this *clear my throat* ehhem .... The Power Of Love... and therefore is widely known as The Love Stone.

And so with these love stonesssss.. so many on my finger, I hope to find my very own male nurse or janitor or live frog or prince charming....

Haha.....

No more kissing dead frogs I hope..!!

Ps: Yesterday, a lady actually stopped me while I was shopping just to look at my ring. She said, "Very Pretty"and started asking me questions. See, the stones worked!! Although it was a lady but wasn't it a good start....?? hehe =)

In Case You Are Interested: Metaphysical Properties: Rose Quartz adds positive love energy to relationships. Compassion and forgiveness. Calming, helps clear stored anger, resentment, jealousy, fears. Replaces negativity with harmony. Helps to balance upper four chakras, heals matters of the heart and eases sexual/emotional imbalances (???). Enhances self-confidence and creativity. Aids kidneys and circulatory system, promotes release of impurities (yeah, I need to get rid of those poison out from my body). Corresponding Astrological Signs: Libra and Taurus (hehe...I'm a Taurean).

I'm getting old

I really am.

Noawadys, I don't like to go clubbing that much. I prefer to sit down at a quiet place, drinking and chatting.

I also get teary easily.

Even when Shane tells me he loves me, I will get teary too.

He often said I am his princess and he is my prince. And even when I feel I looked ugly and all messed up, he will tell me: "Mommy, you are not ugly, you are so beautiful. You look like a Princess!!"

He is always so sweet to me.

Maybe I'm really getting old and getting all so sentimental. This song that is currently playing is older than I am. It's one of mom's favourite song. I heard this song when I was very young and this song always remind me of Mom. And I played this song over and over again when I was pregnant with Shane and I will sing softly to him, changing the lyrics to: "Papa loves You, Mommy loves you..."

Shane is off this weekend to Papa's place and he was very excited and happy about it prior. Sometimes I didn't want him to go. And sometimes I feel he should spend more time with his Dad. And sometimes I question myself, does his Dad really love him??

Never mind that, I love Shane very much and I guess that is sufficient for him for now.