perhaps love

Wednesday 11 October 2006




The sound of crushing heart and the rainfall of tears accompanied my many nites in bed. Sleep would not come no matter how hard I tried or how much I cried.



I thought I would never heal. I thought I would cry forever and maybe be blinded in both eyes. Who would have thought my love didn't last forever. Funny was it not for I once firmly believed I had found my him, I once firmly believed I had found the one man for the one me.



I thought I had found the one who would keep me warm in the middle of the cold nite. I thought I had found home.



With my heart broken, my hopes dashed, I was despaired and devastated beyond imagination. I wished tomorrow never come. For I knew not how to live a life without him. I understood nothing. Or rather I refused to understand anything.



Why does some people fall madly in love, only to break each other's heart years later? Why couldn't God make love last forever?



Falling in love is the most beautiful thing that can happen to anyone. Finding the one whom you love and amazingly, love you in return is like taming a wild tiger. Out of the many hundreds of people crossing my path daily, miraculously I met him. He chosed to love me and I, him. Yet we were not meant to be. Those feelings were like a thousand knives cutting thru that delicate heart, layer by layer. The unknown aching from deep within inside. The lump in your throat that just won't go away no matter how hard you tried to swallow. Those empty feelings. Those lonely nites.



I once survived a broken heart but I don't think I can survive another.



So I pray to God, never to let me fall in love again, unless He can assure me that He will find me someone who will take care of my heart, someone who will never let those unwanted feelings overcome me again. Someone who will never love another but me.



Someone who is perfect.



Perfect in my own little way. Perfect in my own small little world.



Perfect - Just for me.



To my future him, love me only if you promise never to let go of my hand, never to shatter my heart to pieces.



Promise to be there for me always until the end of my time.



If you promise, I think I love you already.







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my cocktail sarang

Saturday 7 October 2006





Krazy.


That's what I am now. I think I am Krazy.


Can someone please take this cocktail sarang out of my head?? PrrRrease?? Let me expand this a little, I'm feeling something that I can't really describe and I don't know what's that.

And it's threatening to turn my peaceful life upside-down!


Mr. Lychee Martini, I'm sorry, you really have to take the backseat now =)









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Friday 6 October 2006